This is an interesting because at different points in recovery, the look of recovery has been different. There was a time (the beginning) when I thought recovery meant weight loss. I thought it meant no more bingeing, only eating healthy foods, no fast food, and a lot of weight gone. This was probably the most motivating picture of recovery because the weight loss was motivating.
Then weight loss looked like eating my meal plan 100% and sticking to it. And maybe not losing a lot of weight but still losing weight. Because the weight has always been so important. I didn’t even know how to visualize recovery without weight loss.
Now recovery looks like having a healthy relationship with food, accepting my body as it is in that moment, and working on my trauma and mental health. I guess there’s a question of what does that mean? What does that even look like?
To me a healthy relationship with food looks like this:
- Eating a variety of foods and meals
- Eating balanced food groups in meals and snacks
- Eating appropriate portions of food
- Eating when hungry to fullness (using mindfulness)
- Not judging foods as good or bad
- Emotional comfort with the feelings of hunger and fullness
Accepting my body looks like not trying to actively pursue weight loss. Being comfortable in my skin. Working to improve my chronic pain. Feeling comfortable wearing all types of clothes. Able to feel sexy in certain outfits. Be okay being naked in sexual situations without worrying about how my body looks.
Lastly, opening up about my trauma in therapy and talking about a lot of what’s hurt me in the past as well. Also finding coping skills that work for me. Developing a trusting relationship with my therapist. Being able to talk about the scary things I usually avoid talking about. Getting my meds worked out to mediate my moods.
Those are all things that are very important to me about how I want my recovery to look like now and in the future. However I’m sure since the picture has change in the past that things will change or tweak again in the future.
I believe recovery looks different for different people. Your recovery might sound similar to someone else’s but how you approach it and the work you put into it will always look different. Your recovery is your own to mold and shape. Don’t forget that.